One common question people tend to ask is, “Are there ever moments when you don’t feel like you have CP?”
It’s always hard for me to find an answer. I was diagnosed with CP around my 1st birthday; for all intents and purposes I was born with it. Therefore I can’t really tell you if there’s even one moment when I don’t feel like I have CP, never mind any moments. I have nothing personally, like a before and after situation, to compare.
One of the biggest reasons I love swimming, as an adult anyway, is because it’s one of the few times when I feel like my CP is a factor (or as much of a factor).
The same probably goes for growing up as well. I just didn’t realize it, or maybe I couldn’t articulate it. Who knows?
And let’s be real for a moment, it’s the one thing that I got any validation about while I was bullied; although even that wasn’t all sunshine either.
I get in and I swim.
I don’t have to tell myself “put plant your right heel on the floor” or “unclench your right hand” whenever I’m nervous, or on uneven ground, or tired, or just because it’s a Saturday.
It’s more natural than walking, even when it isn’t the prettiest most textbook stroke in the pool. I don’t have to “tell myself” anything other than maybe “left, right, left, right” when I can feel myself drift, or “listing” for the boating folk.
More people on earth can walk than can swim, so that counts for something.
*A similar version of this post was written on September 27, 2014