I’ve been riffling through my past writings, for various reasons. I can’t say it’s been all fun rereading everything but it has been interesting.
Two years ago I was pre-surgery*
One year ago I was post 1 round of Botox*
*I did indeed have to search the archives to remember this
This year the MDs & Ph.D.s are pretty much hands off.
Things aren’t prefect.
But a CP body isn’t your typical definition of perfect.
“It doesn’t get easier or harder. It just gets different.”
The idealistic picture I had in my mind two years ago is a distant memory. As in so distant I barely remember the picture, other than I had one.
The real picture is coming into focus.
I’m sure there are things that could use fixing. In fact I know there are. They’ve just been put in the “wait and see” category, and it looks like they’ll be staying there.
Do I want them fixed?
But I don’t know how much difference it’ll make overall.
Plus I’m in pretty awesome physical shape.
Going in for more work would mean “tearing down” my hard work.
That’s the biggest negative for me.
Further improvement would come at a cost.
I’m not 100% with how things are.
I’ve made that pretty clear to a lot of people.
But who is really, truly, honestly happy with themselves 100%?
Even if I can still see room for improvement that doesn’t mean I have to bow to the surgical gods for it.
A big revelation for me I admit.
I can manage my own trajectory.
Modern medicine will always be there.
*A similar version of this post was written on September 2, 2011